August 18 - As compulsive gamblers, self-delusion was intricately woven
through almost all of what we thought and did. We became experts at
convincing ourselves, when necessary, that black was white, that wrong
was right, or even that day was night. Now that we're in the Gamblers
Anonymous Program, our need for self-delusion is fading. If I'm fooling
myself these days, my sponsor can spot it quickly. And, as he or she
skillfully steers me away from my fantasies, I find that I'm less and
less likely to defend myself against reality and unpleasant truths about
myself. Gradually, in the process, my pride, fear, and ignorance are
losing their destructive power.
Do I firmly believe that a solitary self-appraisal wouldn't be nearly enough?
Today I Pray - May I understand that not only must I look to my Higher Power, but that I needed to trust my fellow members of the group in this Step of self-evaluation. For we mirror each other in all our delusions and fantasies, and with these facing mirrors, we produce a depth of perspective that we could never come by alone.
Today I Will Remember - To see myself all around, I need a three way mirror - with reflections from God, my friends, and me.
Do I firmly believe that a solitary self-appraisal wouldn't be nearly enough?
Today I Pray - May I understand that not only must I look to my Higher Power, but that I needed to trust my fellow members of the group in this Step of self-evaluation. For we mirror each other in all our delusions and fantasies, and with these facing mirrors, we produce a depth of perspective that we could never come by alone.
Today I Will Remember - To see myself all around, I need a three way mirror - with reflections from God, my friends, and me.
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