February 6 - I used to be an expert at unrealistic self-appraisal. At certain times, I would look only at that part of my life that seemed good. Then I would magnify whatever real or imagined virtues I had attained. Next, I would pat myself on the back for the fantastic job I was doing in the Program. Naturally, this generated a craving for still more "accomplishments" and still greater approval. Wasn't that the pattern of my days during active addiction? The difference now, though, is that I can use the best alibi known - the spiritual alibi.
Do I sometimes rationalize willful actions and nonsensical behavior in the name of "spiritual objectives"?
Today I Pray - God help me to know if I still crave attention and approval to the point of inflating my own virtues and magnifying my accomplishments in the Program or anywhere. May I keep a realistic perspective about my good points, even as I learn to respect myself.
Today I Will Remember - Learn to control inflation.
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