Wednesday, February 6, 2013

See your Good Points during Recovery

February 6 - I used to be an expert at unrealistic self-appraisal.  At certain times, I would look only at that part of my life that seemed good.  Then I would magnify whatever real or imagined virtues I had attained.  Next, I would pat myself on the back for the fantastic job I was doing in the Program.  Naturally, this generated a craving for still more "accomplishments" and still greater approval.  Wasn't that the pattern of my days during active addiction?  The difference now, though, is that I can use the best alibi known - the spiritual alibi.

Do I sometimes rationalize willful actions and nonsensical behavior in the name of "spiritual objectives"?

Today I Pray - God help me to know if I still crave attention and approval to the point of inflating my own virtues and magnifying my accomplishments in the Program or anywhere.  May I keep a realistic perspective about my good points, even as I learn to respect myself.

Today I Will Remember - Learn to control inflation.

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