October 30 - When I'm motivated to by pride - by bondage of self - I become partly or even wholly blind to my liabilities and shortcomings. At that point, the last think I need is comfort. Instead, I need an understanding friend in the Gamblers Anonymous Program - a friend who'll unhesitatingly chop a hole through the wall my ego has built so that the light of reason can once again shine through.
Do I take time to review my progress, to spot check myself on a daily basis, and to promptly try to remedy my wrongs?
Today I Pray - I pray that the group - or just one friend - will be honest enough to see my slippery manifestations of pride and brave enough to tell me about them. My self-esteem was starved for so long that, with my first successes in the GA Program, it may swell to the gross proportions of self-satisfaction. May a view from outside myself give me a true picture of how I am handling the triumph of my abstinence - with grateful humility or with pride.
Today I Will Remember - Self -esteem or self-satisfaction?
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