June 12 - Many of us have had difficulty ridding ourselves of the
ravages of guilt. During the early days in the Gamblers Anonymous
Program, I either misunderstood certain parts of the Steps, or tried to
apply them too quickly and too eagerly. The result was that I increased
my feelings of guilt and worthlessness, rather than freeing myself as
the Steps intend. Soon, though, I became at least willing to forgive
myself, and I made a new beginning. I undertook all the soul searching
and cleansing Steps in our Program as they were intended to be taken,
and not from a below-ground position of crippling hate and guilt.
Have I made amends to myself?
Today
I Pray - May I forgive myself, as God has forgiven me. May I know that
if I am hanging on to an old satchel full of guilt, then I am not
following the example God has shown me. If my Higher Power, who has
demonstrated forgiveness by leading me to this healing place, can
forgive me, then so can I. May I not begrudge myself what God has so
generously offered.
Today I Will Remember - God forgives. So must I.
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