May 18 - I considered myself a "loner" in the days when I was gambling. Although I was often with other people - saw them, heard them, touched them, most of my important dialogues were with my inner self. I was certain that nobody else would ever understand. considering my former opinion of myself, it's likely that I didn't want anybody to understand. I smiled through gritted teeth even as I was dying on the inside.
Have my insides begun to match my outsides since I've been in the Gamblers Anonymous Program?
Today I Pray - May my physical, emotional, intellectual, and spiritual selves become one, a whole person again. I thank my Higher Power for showing me how to match my outside to my inside, to laugh when I feel like laughing, to cry when I feel sad, to recognize my own anger or fear or guilt. I pray for wholeness.
Today I Will Remember - I am becoming whole.
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