May 15 - Looking back at those last desperate days before I came to Gamblers Anonymous, I remember more than anything the feeling of loneliness and isolation. Even when I was surrounded by people, including my own family, the sense of "aloneness" was overwhelming. Even when I tried to act sociable and wore the mask of cheerfulness, I usually feld a terrible anger at not belonging.
Will I ever forget the misery of being "alone in a crowd"?
Today I Pray - I thank God for the greatest single joy that has come to me outside of my abstinence from gambling - the feeling that I am no longer alone. May I not assume that loneliness will vanish overnight. May I know that there will be a lonely time during recovery, especially since I must pull away from my former gambling buddies. I pray that I may find new friends who are recovering. I thank God for the Gamblers Anonymous Fellowship.
Today I Will Remember - I am not alone.
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