May 16 - Many of us in the Gamblers Anonymous Program share the memory that we originally gambled to "belong," to "be a big shot," or to "be a part of a crowd." Others of us fueled our addictions in order to "get in" - to feel, at least for a short time, that we fitted in with the rest of the human race. Sometimes, our gambling had the desired effect, temporarily assuaging our feelings of apartness. But when the rush of the action wore off, we were left feeling more alone, more left out, more "different" than ever.
Do I sometimes feel that "my case is different"?
Today I Pray - God, may I get over my feeling of being "different" or in some way unique, of not belonging. Perhaps it was the feeling that led me to gambling in the first place. It also kept me from seeing the seriousness of my addiction, since I thought "I am different. I can handle it." May I now be aware that I do belong, to a vast Fellowship of people like me. With every shared experience, my "uniqueness" is disappearing.
Today I Will Remember - I am not unique.
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